Schizophrenia and the Superconscious Mind
In my experience, I’ve noticed that my schizophrenic symptoms link up with a phenomenon I like to call superconsciousness. It can be difficult to go from experience to explanation, but I will attempt to here.
One majour symptom is paranoia, and the feeling of everything being some sort of conspiracy. This symptom comes from noticing patterns of thought that seem to be explicitly linked, and the more I notice them the more they seem to repeat and make themselves apparent. However, when I examine them closely the patterns seem to break apart and become disconnected.
In the movie, “I Heart Huckabees” there are existential detectives who preach that everything is connected in a sort of existential blanket, and a rival author who states that everything is random and disconnected. The two main protagonists sort of teeter between the two viewpoints before reaching a conclusion that incorporates them both. That is sort of where I am at right now.
One viewpoint that I have is that everything is a sort of network. This can also be noticed in nature, from the patterns on leaves to colonies of ants and how they communicate. Communication is something that is still in development, and much communication may actually be done on an unconscious level like the way that our neurons send signals to different parts of our bodies. We are not conscious of the process, and there may be other types of communication going on that we are not directly conscious of. This may be happening on a subatomic level. If we are all part of an interconnected network, then communication could be an ongoing process in nature only some of it entering our direct conscious awareness.
Our subconscious mind contains a lot of information that does not register on a conscious level. One may make subconscious connections in their experience, but their conscious mind does not register it. What happens when the subconscious mind becomes superconscious? It begins to form a network that builds upon itself.
There is a popular saying that goes, “Where attention goes, energy flows.” I’ve noticed this to ring true. The more that I notice a specific pattern, the more it makes itself apparent. Sometimes people only notice patterns in their subconscious mind, but never become conscious of it. I became superconscious of the patterns I was noticing, and they would make themselves more and more apparent. I would point them out to others, but they would not be consciously aware of these patterns. I was in my own superconscious network where my thoughts, perceptions and feelings would appear to be linked up with my direct experience. I was in a completely different state of consciousness than those around me, but they were all unconsciously and subconsciously a part of my superconscious network.
This experience ranged from euphoric to detrimental, depending largely on which area of consciousness seemed to be in focus for me. There were both positive and negative patterns. There were times when the negative patterns got so bad, I felt that I was experiencing Hell. It’s not in a religious sense, but the idea of Hell being an unbearable experience of which I had no control over. It turned out to be a mental structure that I suppose my own mind had created, and one might call illusionary but the patterns were so precise that I tend to maintain that there’s something more to it. Again not in a religious sense, but in the sense that we somehow mentally create our own structures and patterns that externally materialize in our direct experience of reality.
Some say that we manifest our reality entirely. I’m not sure how much of it we have control over, and how direct it is. If there is a way that we can have more conscious control of our reality, I do believe that the key lies in making the unconscious and subconscious mind superconscious. It can be tricky and even dangerous, as some things we may not really be meant to be conscious of. It can also be confusing to be the only one who is superconscious. No one else notices the patterns and they don’t seem to really do anything other than produce an illusionary experience. If more people were to become superconscious, there might be more that could be done with it but as it is it is a lonely network of thought capacity that has not been tapped into enough to be actualized into anything substantial. It’s still in the experimental phase.
Noticing the patterns of course isn’t enough to actually change them. I’ve noticed that when I was in a mental structure that felt like Hell, my way out was in shifting the focus. Focus seems to be the only aspect that I can actually control. In changing the focus, I was able to notice different patterns. I was then able to tweak the way that I was consciously processing this information into my experience. The patterns would become more precise and relevant to my experience, as if my feedback was tweaking the way that the patterns presented themselves to my conscious mind.
Even if this is illusionary, it can still be a useful tool. I went from being in my own personal hell to having my own personal network of superconscious communication. Of course this involved taking information out of context and reformatting it to align with my subconscious and superconscious thought patterns. This is done automatically, like a computer. Some may consider the results of this process to be delusional. The step that is crucial to not skip over in this process is raw data analysis. Although context can be switched around, the raw data stream remains the same. This also goes with my idea that everything is data.